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Welcome! This is where it all began. I no longer post on this website and some of the content reflects former convictions and understandings. Some of these posts are hard core on issues that I am softer on these days. I deleted many posts that I feared would lead people into legalism, so if you find a missing hyperlink that may be why. Our family is no longer "quiver full," I no longer wear a headcovering, and I do not wear skirts/dresses exclusively. These days I write at Covered By His Hand.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

The call you never want to get

I just received a phone call that you never want to get. (Especially after you are reassured by the Doctor two days before that your child's condition is minor). The call went something like this:

Nurse: Hi, Bethany. How are you today?
Me: Fine. Do you have the results from Lydia's stool sample?
Nurse: No, I am calling to set up Lydia's appointment with the specialist.
Me: We already have an appointment to see the immunologist on May 29th.
Nurse: No, I mean the oncologist.
Me: *Gagging* The what? I think I heard you wrong.
Nurse: The oncologist in ...
Me: This is news to me.
Nurse: Her diagnosis is lymphadenopathy.
Me: Can you spell that?
Nurse: (spells it)
Me: This is news to me (yes, I repeat myself when I am troubled... yes, I repeat myself when I am troubled).
Nurse: She also needs another appointment for a sweat chloride test.

OK, you get the gist. And, you can safely assume that I am sitting here choking back tears. What mother of a two-year-old can handle this information without tears?! Not only has she indeed got some lymph node problem, and she may have cancer, but now they are testing for Cystic Fibrosis as well! I am not made of steel, I am more of a delicate petal - I weep!

Lydia gets the sweat chloride test on May 2nd, and we will try to get her into the oncologist the same day (as Springfield is a lot of gas away).

Some of you have gotten that call! I know at least one of my readers has been through the turmoil of a child with lymphoma. I cannot imagine what that is like; honestly - I hope I never do know what that is like. But, here on earth we are all affected by sin. It corrupts our bodies. But, more importantly - sin corrupts our hearts! Has your heart been washed clean by the blood of Jesus? Are you trusting in Him alone for your salvation? Friend, if you do not know who this Jesus is, please e-mail me! So, if you ever get "the call you never want to get" you can go into the crisis knowing that Jesus is going with you! I could not go through this process of testing my baby for all kinds of lethal diseases if it were not for my standing upon the Rock of my Salvation!

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Phil 4:6-7 (KJV)

4 comments:

Eric said...

Bethany,

Alice and I are praying for you. We have been there and it sure isn't easy. God held us through it as He will you. Please let us know how we can help. My e-mail is ecarp70@yahoo.com.

Eric

Bethany W. said...

Eric, I deeply value your prayers knowing that you will be praying from a heart that has been there! Thank you!

Alice C. said...

Bethany, let me add my note to Eric's. We are lifting you up to the Father and trusting Him in His sovereign wisdom to be working in all your lives during this time. I find it interesting that you just posted a few days ago on "My Faith Has Found a Resting Place." Continue to rest in Him, the perfect source of peace.

Love, Alice

Bethany W. said...

Thank you, Alice. My prayer is that throughout this whole trial we will be able to stand firm on Jesus. As our trials get tougher we want to see our faith grow stronger, not weaker!