I am wandering today if I am the only woman who has four kids and a doting husband, yet feels terribly lonely. I walk around all day aching with loneliness.
Paul is the pastor of a small, country church. Aside from our youthful family of 6, there are about 15 regular attenders, and all have white hair. I am NOT complaining about "old people." I love the elderly in my church - they are precious! What I am saying is that these older people do not fill the void I feel.
I have a void that aches for a like-minded woman. All my "real life" peers/friends are hours away (or days away). So, I am left to internet companions. Daily I attempt to fill the lonely void by reading the blogs of Reformed Christians (see the side bar). This activity helps only as long as I am reading their site, then reality hits -I have no friends. I have no one here (besides Paul) to listen to my pondering, encourage me when I am down, or reach over and hug me.
I have family within an hour's drive, but that doesn't fill the void. I often get e-mails from real-life friends, but that doesn't help. We go for long drives in the country to try to satisfy this hunger, but that doesn't help. I feel doomed to loneliness. Am I the only one?! Do other moms with 4+ kids feel lonely? Having more babies is not a cure for loneliness! (Though it may go a long way towards treating laziness and selfishness!)
What's a lonely Mama to do?