Welcome! This is where it all began. I no longer post on this website and some of the content reflects former convictions and understandings. Some of these posts are hard core on issues that I am softer on these days. I deleted many posts that I feared would lead people into legalism, so if you find a missing hyperlink that may be why. These days I write at Covered By His Hand.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Baby #5 update

I completely forgot to blog about my ultrasound last week! Sorry, to those of you who only get your updates from the blog!

Rebecca is a little disappointed, because the ultrasound showed just ONE baby! I thought the baby looked big... or maybe I am expecting the worst. They did NOT do any ultrasound measurements to confirm the due date. My big, long ultrasound will be July 21st. At that time we will know gender, size, due date, etc. (Anyone want to babysit 3 of my kids so that Paul can go along?)

I never did say why I am going to an OB and getting ultrasounds, did I? A few months ago I was planning to home-birth. It is still my dream/desire to homebirth, but our insurance will not cover such things as midwives and home deliveries. I will give birth in a hospital with individual labor/delivery/recovery suites. I will write up a birth plan that refuses antibiotic cream on Baby's newborn face (since I do not have any STDs) and the Hep B vaccine.

One last thing... even though I am supposedly only 15 weeks along, the baby was as high as my belly button this morning. Rebecca enjoyed feeling Baby roll around. If I am only 15 weeks this is going to be a B-I-G baby!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Through the Eyes of Rebecca

My parents were here on Tuesday and Wednesday, and we always get some new pics! Rebecca nabbed Grandpa's expensive Canon camera and took all these pictures. I thought you would like to see our family through the eye of Rebecca.

This is my parents with Lydia and Nelson.

Grandma and Lydia.

Grandma and Joshua.

Me and Nelson.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

New Air Conditioner

Paul found a great deal for a window air conditioner on Craigslist! We got a 29,000 BTU machine for only $100! It works great! Yesterday afternoon, before Paul installed the AC, the house was 90 degrees (still cooler than it was outside). Last night we slept at a very comfortable 75 degrees!

Joshua still has Croup. We try to keep him calm... but it is awfully hard for big brother to remember NOT to wrestle him until he gets better.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Considering a Move

Paul and I have been talking about moving closer to Columbia, MO - where he works. If you have read my blog for very long, then you know I have wanted to move for about 10 months (that would date back to the day of our move - LOL).

Reasons we want to move:

- Less money/miles for Paul to get to work
- Less driving = More sleeping for Paul
- Paul needs another part-time job (which may be with UPS driving the "air" packages), he will look into waiting tables after he finds out whether he will get transferred into the driving position with UPS... but either way all jobs are in Columbia
- Mice, rats, snakes, opossums, raccoons, skunks, and anything else that is IN my basement and/or IN my walls!
- Closer to our friends that we fellowship with weekly (a Bible study group)
- More options for a local church. We would love to drive only 15 minutes to get to church
- Our house has no insulation, and costs a fortune to heat
- Our house is literally falling apart. Our windows are falling out of the sills... and/or the sills are falling out of the casing - seriously
- We NEED to separate our boys from our girls, right now they all four share one room
- Where will we put another baby?!
- The water is not drinkable
- The water stains my clothes red (with iron)

Reasons we may not want to move:
- Money, of course - it always costs more to move and set up housekeeping than you first expect
- Our current rent is INSANELY LOW! We will never find a house as cheap as this again... and I doubt I would like it if we did : (
- We love the open space for the kids to run around here
- We have a dog and 3 cats (2 cats are currently pregnant)

So, in my estimation, if we rent another place in the country there is only one remaining objection to moving - money. (But we would certainly be saving money on propane to move!)

And, even though I am very tired, I think I could rally for a move!!! (Anything to get away from the snakes and mice ; )

We are going to be seriously praying about this!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009


The doctor's office called first thing this morning - all my labs are normal. I asked about Celiac's disease, and he said that I do not fit the profile. He also said that Celiac's is diagnosed in such a way that I could not have it done during pregnancy.

So... No answers. The doctor heartily agrees that what I am going through is NOT pregnancy related. But, he said he will leave any further testing to my OB (which I will not get to see for 2 weeks yet).

I am heartily discouraged. I will not put on airs of pretending that I am enjoying this trial. I am not. I do not doubt that God is using this for my good and for His glory, but I am not enjoying it. Maybe some day I will appreciate it and value it for the refining fire it is... someday.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Prayers Needed

I need prayers, my health is getting worse. I have taken the vitamin D supplements for one month now, and I think I do see a positive change in my joint pains. I am able to walk with less pain in my knees. BUT, my upper arm muscle pain has gotten worse. I cannot lift anything! I cannot pour my kids' drinks (because the milk jug is too heavy). I cannot dress myself, Paul pulls clothes over my head. I cannot pull up my hair without great pain. And, I can hardly wash myself in the shower. I went to the doctor this morning (my family doc, a DO) and he put a rush on some labs for me. He is testing my iron, B12, folic acid, sugar, kidney function, and thyroid. He said he will call me tomorrow.
I ask you to pray for these things:
- wisdom for the doctor to interpret the labs
- health and strength for my body
- and MUCH grace to get through this trying time

Paul went back to UPS last Thursday. He is no longer here when the children wake up. You cannot imagine how hard it is for me to get up and care for the children in the morning.

I hate that I cannot take care of my family. I cannot cook. I cannot clean. I cannot do laundry. I have few clean clothes... fewer clean dishes... and no intention of cooking supper. My family needs a miracle. Paul needs help. He needs a helpmeet.

Please, please pray.

Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing praises. Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord; and the prayer offered in faith will restore the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up, and if he has committed sins, they will be forgiven him. Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another, so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much. Elijah was a man with a nature like ours, and he prayed earnestly that it might not rain; and it did not rain on the earth for three years and six months. And he prayed again, and the sky poured rain, and the earth produced its fruit. James 5:13-18 (NASB77)

Friday, June 5, 2009

Learning Delays

The average seven year old girl has very little worries. My daughter, Rebecca, is not average. You see, she has a reading delay. My bright, talented girl happens to be ambidextrous. And, as a result, she often reads forwards and backwards (sometimes alternating mid-sentence). Rebecca can write left of right-handed, though she seems to have more control with her left. She can swing a bat or throw a ball with either hand. Most people think it is a gift to be ambidextrous, but I think that Rebecca might disagree.

You see, these past few months people have taken notice of how slowly Rebecca's reading is progressing (I think it began when she turned 7). At first, I was not too worried, because I know all kids develop differently... that was before the jeering started. Children younger than Becca can almost always read (in homeschool circles, especially). Parents, Grandparents, and children alike seem to take a sick delight in pointing out how Rebecca is not as good as everyone else.

I am literally sick over this issue. I think my migraines have gotten worse, because I know that my seven-year old daughter cannot read. I cry every time she cries... every time someone says something hurtful to her (or within her hearing). She is too young to carry this enormous burden. We pray that God will take away these obstacles, but He does not. We must keep pressing on, regardless of the delays.

I am not writing this to receive advice so much. I have done plenty of research on dyslexia (though if you have something that you have found really helpful you can pass it on). I am writing this, because I never see any bloggers talking about the struggles of homeschooling... and with good reason.... Enemies of homeschooling will likely jump on this post as a reason to put the kids in "real" school.

While I want to promote homeschooling on this blog, I NEVER want to make it look like an easy, walk in the park. Homeschooling is hard. If you want to teach your kids, you will have to be self-disciplined. If you want to teach your kids you will have to be ready for delays along the way. You may even have a child who has some "disability."

I want to be a voice that says "Don't give up! You can do it!" Times will be tough, but just keep pressing on! An education from home will be worth it!